Refraction

(Happy New Year!)

Do these two sentences mean the same thing?

1) I wonder if X isn’t better than Y.
2) I wonder if X is better than Y.

On the surface, it’s a basic kind of statement (“I am comparing X and Y; X may be better, but I’m still thinking about it”) and they seem identical. At least superficially.

I think the sentences imply different things, though. 1) is something I would say after having already chosen Y, and then re-evaluating X. 2) can be said either before or after a choice is made, but seems slightly more natural to say before.

Then again, maybe sentence 1) is not quite Standard English and I’m just making all this up.

it’s never.

Never even brought it up. Afraid and muddied and worried and just not wanting to blow it more than I already had…

And yet at the same time just wanting to enjoy what was there, no expectations, no promises; just to live for the moment and not look ahead to the anguish of suddenly being strangers again…

I feel like I’ve been waiting forever.

And yet it’s now or never (as D—- so helpfully pointed out).

I have a feeling it’ll probably be never.

I got something to say you know
But nothing comes
— “Silent All These Years”, Tori Amos

Oh, let me be fooled

avant que je ne tombe….

Oh wait, it’s a little late for that, isn’t it?

(Is “crypticness” even a word?)

it’s so beautiful here, she says, this moment now. and this moment, now.
….
there’s a reason not to want this but I forgot.
….
oh words like rain, how sweet the sound.

On the edge of the bell curve? Yes, perhaps. Keep telling yourself that.

Do you ever want to talk about something but are unsure as to whether it’s worth bringing up with people? As in, it’s insignificant, or boring, or … you don’t really have that much to say about it but it’s been on your mind a lot?

So… I actually have a costume for Hallowe’en this year. I don’t think I’ve had a proper Hallowe’en costume for a really, really long time. I had a blast making it, actually, and have resolved for the 7465384th time that I will learn how to sew my own clothes.

In fact, this Hallowe’en costume is almost a cosplay, since I’m dressing up as a video game character. And because of that, it’s incredibly nerdy; I’m okay with that, though. 🙂 Working with a bunch of science geeks does tend to have that effect on you.

I think a couple of the other students at work are coming dressed up, so there are definitely going to be some group shots there. 😀

And what’s this? Not only do we have a new single from LOVE, but she also have a MySpace page!

Plus, we are treated to this piece of news:

待望のファーストアルバムリリース決定！
12月5日に待望のファーストアルバムがリリースされます。
タイトルは「Embryo Love Songs」

Debut album, people! I am excited 🙂